My God

I'm only writing this to use as a reference.

I remember I was young when I assumed there was a God. My parents had nothing to do with it, I was actually rebelling at that time lol. Life just din't make sense to me, here on Earth we have the food chain that showed me everything had a purpose or a place in life. When I thought about the universe I saw the same to a leaser extent. It was just so off to me, to spark life for no reason other than to live.

The God that I came to reason is there was not my christian God. This God was the head, the alpha & omega the constant & forever a cold God that din't care for its creation just made it to be. I will not go down the path of trying to figure out this God again. Its just pointless, to me this God created everything and was everything how was a kid now 22 year old suppose to figure out something that generation of people haven't since they could ask what is God. I thought about some stuff like maybe we were created to create him? or we were just thing to keep life worth living because maybe it was extremely boring to live as one and so what did we mean to him? what part of God are we from? ......etc.

I'm done with that, I have a life to live I'm not going to kill myself trying to figure out what this God is. So basically I just assume there's a God cause life having no purpose just never EVER sat well with me.

The belief in a God is what lead me to Christianity. I wanted the God they talk about in the bible to be that God that was in my head. I was 14 (I think) when I figured there as a God then at 19 I chose that God to be the one I read in the bible. I liked that God. I could have chosen any religion really judaism, Islam or catholicism there all in the same family same God just different way to worship him. I chose Christianity because it was my favorite way to worship him (through Jesus).

I'm ok with the fact that I believed in a God long before I was a Christian. Christianity is my faith. God is something I just believe there is and Christianity is what I leave my FAITH in, that the God they speak of is the God I have assumed is here. I like my religion, its already helped me out a LOT in my life so anyone that has a problem with me being a christian doesn't really affect me.

Everybody has a right to there own opinion so I don't fight anybody that says I'm wrong but when they act like they know without a doubt that there is no God, or its this God, or that they have life figured out I just don't even listen. I will admit I am just assuming there is a God and have faith in my religion because I'm human i've only lived on this Earth 22 years how am I suppose to have existence figured out? I leave the same reasoning to people that have different opinions I listen but I will never except something as a completed fact (when it comes to this) were all humans and just playing a guessing game on what the reasoning for life is.